Kelly Clarkson said she relied heavily on the help of anti-depressants to get through her bitter divorce from Brandon Blackstock.
“I looked at my therapist and I just couldn’t stop sobbing, and I was like, ‘I actually had to cancel some of the other day because I couldn’t stop crying. I cannot do this,’” the singer said on the “Las Culturistas” podcast.
“And it was one of those things where I really had to put my pride aside and like all my childhood issues of whatever.”
“I was on Lexapro for like, I think two months,” she told hosts Matt Rogers and Bowen Yang.
The “Kelly Clarkson Show” host, 41, filed for divorce from Blackstock in June 2020 after seven years of marriage.
The pair — who share daughter River Rose, 9, and son Remington Alexander, 7 — finally settled their split in March 2022 after two years of court battles.
“My thing was, I just can’t smile anymore for America right now. I’m not happy and I need help … and it was honest to God, the greatest decision ever. I wouldn’t have made it [without it].”
Last week, Clarkson told Apple Music’s Zane Lowe that she “did not handle [the divorce] well.”
“I don’t know how people get through anything like that because I’m not going to say I did it gracefully. Behind closed doors by myself, it was not,” she said, admitting she tried to put on a happy face.
The singer said she often found herself “crying so hard” that she “couldn’t even speak” when she realized that her ill-fated marriage was dying.
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The “American Idol” alum earlier this month admitted she stayed in her marriage much longer than she should have because she didn’t want to feel like a failure.
“When you’re in it … I’m like, ‘I can do this,’” Clarkson told host Glennon Doyle on the “We Can Do Hard Things” podcast. “I can handle so much. I can control my actions. I can control my reactions.”
“I can do this and I can reach this person and I can get through. And it becomes a little bit of your ego that gets in the way.”